Consider the lessons that C. S. Lewis taught us in The Chronicles of Narnia.
When Lucy went through the doorway of the wardrobe, she was trying to hide.
She thought she would enter and then come out without consequence.
I know about THE DOOR.
I know about faith that defies logic because it is bigger on the inside that it is on the outside.
I know about a power much bigger than me.
I know to trust that Higher Power that controls my circumstances
THE Door is Jesus Christ.
and out and find pasture." John 10:9
So I puffed myself up with pride and started filling out job applications without asking God if he was finished with me in the classroom yet.
It has been a heartache and an exercise in frustration and disappointment.
The more doors I knocked on, the more options I saw.
Take a look at Matthew 7:12-14
"Am I supposed to surrender my pride?"
And I am not good enough, or big enough or smart enough to do this.
But You Are!
Please forgive me for not holding fast to the knowledge that you will protect and provide for us.
"Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen" Ephesians 3:20-21